Surrender to Thee

Two days ago I went to work and the water pressure was gone. I know I was closing the store, but come on. I called facilities and my district manager. I had to be patient and wait. The plumbers came 3 and 1/2 hours later. The water pressure pump was broken. That was the verdict. Wow! I was upset for my partners. I got on the phone and called around for my partners to get hours. I know stuff happens, but I was upset. I know I am going on this spiritual journey. I was disgusted and upset! I had to surrender to God and allow the divinity to work through me. I forget that I'm living on borrowed time. God is in control. I cannot make anything happen. I can make sure that I am prepared for the opportunity that comes my way. When I fail even when I'm well-prepared, I should be learning and discovering. I've learned that it all comes in due time. In the meantime I have to continue to prepare, discover, study and do. I cannot sit by idly and think something will happen. I have to take the one step to God, and God will take two steps to me. Thy will, not my will, is done in the perfect way at all times. It doesn't have to make sense to me at all. It will come in alignment in time.

When you surrender to God, you will eliminate fear and anger. We all have been depressed because we cannot find 'our place in the world.' Our life is formless, and it's going as planned. We have to celebrate life and love. We cannot live to accomplish 'goals.' When life is aligned with the Divinity its seamless and formless. You are at a place of peace, love and serenity. This nirvana as it may overwhelms your being and is. In a state of nirvana everything clicks for you. Nothing overwhelms you because you realize that it is what it is. Everything becomes apparent. No questions are asked.

Last night I had a wonderful conversation with a beautiful woman. She wanted to know her purpose. She wanted to know her 'place in the world.' I told her that she is 'exactly where she needs to be in her life.' I gave her examples of what she is learning and continues to learn in her current situation. Money does not determine how rich someone is. Intellectual capital is sometimes worth more than money. I continued to tell her that she had a unique gift of picking up new knowledge and applying it quickly. As I continued to talk to her, my life became clearer. Back to this theory of nirvana, one definition is the destruction of greed, hatred and delusion. Let us internalize this. A lot of times we want what we cannot have. We think we need more. We look in the mirror and hate what we see so we deflect that off on others. We are often deluded to our current life.

I deserve NIRVANA. I am willing to look at myself as is. I am wonderful, loving and special. I have to accept the fact that I want to change. With that change will come progress. The progression will lead me to a life of peace, serenity and love. Let me cherish the journey.