Honoring Myself

As you know my Starbucks is closing in Kenner. I've been trying to find places for all of my 'partners'. Some only want to go to certain stores. I am trying to make sure they are alright. I've been stressing. I cannot stress anything. When I let go and let God, I usually end up better. I have to make sure I am doing what I supposed to do, but I have to remember that I am not God. Maybe these partners need to learn lessons I as a human cannot teach them. I do not know. They have to bend, too. They have to understand that I was a different manager. Sometimes I think I was overcompensating for all the bad managers I had. I didn't want that. I can become better. I am not their friend. I am their manager. When I am irritated, I have to talk to my friends and other managers who understand my frustrations. I cannot allow my 'partners' to see it on my face. I have to work on this. I am an open book even with my emotions. I have to learn to hide these until I can decipher how I feel.

I am learning every day. I know what I cannot do. I'm learning what my strengths and weaknesses are. I know I have to learn to honor myself first. I tried to think of their 'feelings' first. Then I get mad when they don't do the same. I cannot be upset with them. This is a lesson I have to continue to learn, for I have to honor myself first. I am worth it. When someone gets mad at me, they will get over it or best yet, I will. It's not hard. Saying no is alright. Understanding what I need, I cannot make concessions. It's time to say what I feel without fear. It's time to say what I want without fear.