Stop Meddling! Let the Divine Work!

While I've been trying to let go and let God, I've been meddling in the Divine's business without success. I've been stressing about what's next for me and where my partners (Starbucks employees) are going. I've been stressing about my love life. I really do not have time to tell you the play-by-play details of it. I've been stressing about money. Debt! Debt! Debt! I've had the answers for all of these things, but I want to meddle. I have to trust the Divine. I have to meditate more. I have to 'be still' and listen to what the Divine is telling me. I have to understand that I have to continue to live and trust that my life is going as planned. I have to make sacrifices. I have to be honest about myself and my financial situation to get out of the ever-evolving debt. I have to save for the future I want.

I have a friend that is happy where she is. She does not have nearly what I have, but she smiles with such inner awareness. Her light shines through, and I want to be around it. This friend thinks I want to be around it for 'alternative motives'. I guess I do. I want her inner strength to rub off of me. I do not have to be this or that. I just have to be me. I cannot place a monetary value on my contribution to the world. I am priceless. There is no amount of money that can be placed on my value. I have to keep telling myself that. I am open to receive so much. Things fall apart over and over again, but they are put back together. I am bending not breaking each time. I'm getting stronger with every situation because I am learning what I need to know.

Yesterday I was happy because I placed all of my employees into other stores since my store is closing. I was worried where they would land. I called around. I bargained with other managers. I've pleaded to get them place and what happened. This one girl is like I want to go with this one. I don't understand. She does not understand that I am trying. I am trying to do what's best for the employees, but I am limited. I don't get to say, "You go there, and you go here." I'm emotionally drained. This process seems like everything is falling apart, but I know there is a silver lining there anyway. I just don't know what it is. I don't care what it is. I have to let go and allow my lesson(s) be taught to me.

I don't break. I bend. I bend far back because I am flexible. I am flexible to take it. Bring it on because I am ready to do the work to be the best I can be.