The Art of Loving

For years I disguised my need for love with sex. Anything I need to know about sex I learned from books, partners and friends. If I couldn't do anything else, I knew how to (you know). About six years ago I realized that I wanted more. I was twenty-six and hadn't been in a meaningful relationship. Depression set in. Questions of 'what was wrong with me' and 'why doesn't anybody love me' entered my head. As I thought about it I realized that I didn't learn about love like I wanted to learn about sex. I didn't attack love as a subject and working extension of me. I often associated love with a mushy, touchy feely kind of thing that wasn't me.

Now I can courageously claim the search for love as an heroic journey we all must choose to be truly free. For I need to be free from my past, the self-defeating image of my body, and the notion that no one can love me. I have to continue to independently love myself as I am and change the things I want. By embracing myself as someone to love others can see and want to be around someone full of joy and enlightenment. This journey is personal and prescriptive as well as passionate and provoking. This journey of self-love guides me toward a path that leads to true fulfillment.

As I enter into a realm where I truly love myself I can celebrate the art of loving as it is. I can love freely without boundaries or definitions. When I speak of love, it's not pretty sometimes. The truth hurts sometimes and in any loving relationship you have to be truthful. If we love we cannot allow the 'ego' to get in the way. We have to love with our body, mind and soul. We have to love as the Divine loves us unconditionally. For we have to understand that love is a one-way street. Just because we love doesn't mean that we will be loved in return. Understand this for all we need is the love of the Divine and self-love. We are worthy of love because we are born into this world. We are created as the image of the Divine. We are love personified. Now I continue on my journey for self-love.