(Wo)Man in the Mirror

It was over twenty years ago, and I can still remember the first time I heard Michael Jackson sing Man in the Mirror. As soon as he crooned, "I'm gonna make a change for once in my life. It's gonna feel real good. Gonna make a difference. Gonna make it right," I knew it was a hit. Twenty years later I think I'm making that song a reality in my life. With all of the controversy surrounding his life and death Michael Jackson made songs from the heart. Man in the Mirror makes me look at myself and see what I need to do to make myself better. I know I have everything I need because I am a Divine representation.

For many years I would not look at myself in the mirror because I thought I was too ugly. I didn't want to see what was in front of me. I didn't want to confront my ugliness. Self-affirmations saved my life. I didn't smile for years because I hated my smile. I now laugh loud and proudly. I love my smile because I noticed I had dimples. Wow, where did those dimples come from? I look at my old pictures. I always had them. They are not pronounced like Lauren London, but who cares? They are mine. I love my profile picture on Facebook because I am smiling and laughing with one of my best friends, Jason.

This is the (Wo)Man in the Mirror year for me. I've taken those shackles off of my feet. I've left behind confusion, doubt and anger. I continue on my journey with a renewed sense of awareness of myself. I look in the mirror with a smile on my face. I've come to realize that the only way I can overcome my demons is to face them. I have to take them head on. It is wonderful to find your way. It's wonderful to understand that you are ready to do this. There's nothing that can stop me except myself. I'm getting out of my way and continue to pour my heart and soul in my dreams as they come to fruition. Ain't no stopping me now...