Putting My Life in Order

Yesterday I realized this whole week I had been sluggish. I hadn't been working out. I hadn't been reading. I hadn't been eating well. I hadn't been sleeping on a schedule. I hadn't been doing anything that would be conducive to the advancement of my life. I stuck in a rut. Yesterday at work, I did absolutely nothing. This morning I woke up at 3:30am without an alarm. God finally woke me up to get out of this rut. I have things to do. I have to clean my office from top to bottom. I have to finish reorganizing the backroom at work. It was a great idea, but it doesn't mean anything if there's not a place for everything. I cannot get mad at my employees if they just put it anywhere. I have to get my life in order. I am the only one who can get up two hours early to write on this blog, read and meditate. I am the only one who can say, "No" to Facebook, Twitter and Myspace unless it has to do with my hopes and dreams. I am the only one who can set a schedule and follow it to get everything I need to get done.

Order! Order! Order! I need to bring order to my body, mind and soul. I have to become aligned with what God has planned. I have to surrender to this plan. There's so many people who believe in my intelligence, my talents and my dreams. I have to understand that I am powerful beyond measure because I am the God's child. I'm now transparent. I have to be honest with myself to change the things I need. I have to be obedient to God's will. I have to discipline my mind, my body, my soul, and my whole being to align myself with my life's purpose. When I make bad choices, don't harp on that. Learn from the bad choice and make another one. When something is over, I have to realize that it is over. I can't dump 'it' and then inspect 'it'. I have to flush and move on. I've always had a sixth sense about things. I can talk very freely with friends now. It took awhile before I could do that. I would talk and then ask myself, "Damn, I didn't know I knew that." I know because I am spiritually connected to God. I cannot be fearful in my quest for advancement. I cannot be fearful I am going to fail. Even in failing I will learn something that I need to know. It's about the journey. This journey teaches me to love myself as God loves me. Wow, I am getting it.