2011: Give Birth to New Possibilities

"Give birth to new possibilities through your ability to reach into the future and let go of the past."

Use everyday as a learning experience to keep going forward. Often I have past failures to define my future. I cannot allow a few 'bumps in the road' to stop me. Donald Trump has had to file for bankruptcy three times for Trump Enterprises, but banks and bondholders continue to loan him money to build Trump Enterprises. Donald Trump is a visionary. Sometimes those visions pay off tremendously and sometimes they go bankrupt, Trump does not stop trying. Neither should I or you for that matter. We have to continue to push forward until our dreams are realized.

Without dreams concrete ideas would not become realized. It was a dream that kept Martin Luther King, Jr. going until his death. It was a dream that inspired Bob Johnson to create B.E.T. (Black Entertainment Television). It was a dream that turned a local broadcast woman with a funny name into one of the most recognizable women in the world, Oprah Winfrey. Now Oprah Winfrey has her 'OWN' network, Oprah Winfrey Network (OWN). Those dreams are too big for you? Maybe you're just living too small. Step your game up, player.

This has turned into a NIKE ad, Just do it! No more waiting on your dream to be realize. Make it happen. God has greenlight your goals. It is time to decide to follow them. It's time to stop bullshitting and get things done. 2010 was a great year. I started a concept call NERD, Inc. NERD is an acronym for New Eduction to Reform & Develop. In 2010 it was conceived, but in 2011 it will be realized. I am wonderful. I am intelligent. I am a visionary. I have to sell my vision to potential donors, business partners, volunteers and anybody who can help me. I will be a little arrogant. Actually, I will be confident about my abilities. You may call me an asshole, but it doesn't matter. You will never call me a failure again. 2011 is the year of redemption, realization and action.

If you are a NERD, come with me. 2011 is about to be on and popping. No bubbly but dreams will come true!

Can I?

That thing, they call it love,
Its forbidden to me, so far from my reality,
I see it, I guess with my friends and their 'love'
Never been there, but I want to...Yes, I do?
I guess I do.
It would be nice to have someone there,
ALWAYS there... Umm, not always, but there,
The better half, getting to know,
Accepting the ways, my ways
Waiting and accepting... Yes, I want that...Yes, I do?!
Umm, being dependable, not being
Single, thinking we not me?
Ah, Yea, I do?
Showing you emotions, letting you in,
Fighting for you to understand me,
Letting you win,Growing together, working through
every weather
Yeah, I WANT THAT!
Not acting on lust, but thinking things through,
Not acting for me but for you, too!
Not being selfish, but selfless,
Uh...umm, yes I do!
Being faithful I can do,
Letting you know me I can do that too
But that's so much work when we could just...
Umm, be two
I'd be me and you'd be you
But honestly I'd never get what I want,
And though I make fun of it, I do...I do want it!
I'd never have it though,
Never ever...CAUSE I'D NEVER HAD YOU!
Can I?

Mind, Body and Soul

Say, baby, what's your name?
I'm trying to get to know you
Let me buy you lunch or
just converse
Let's talk and get to know you
Each other
Maybe one day
I can be your lover

From head to toe
I've watched your every move
Even the way your smile
Is MADD cool
The way you laugh is
music to my ears
Everything I say to you
is from my heart
It's truly sincere

I don't know where
this conversation will lead
I hope it's to your heart
to stir your soul
I want to be your friend
so I'm stepping to you
from one soul to another
It's love, respect, sharing,
compromising, forgiving and creating
that are key elements to any relationship.
I hope I did not overwhelm your mind
By all that I've told
you, no bs here, just what I really feel
I've got this under control
Here's my number. So when you're ready
I can satisfy your mind, body and soul.

I Want Human Connection

I'm telling you that technology is a blessing and curse. I love it, for I can communicate with people that otherwise I would not (i.e. Facebook 'friends'), but I feel it takes away from the human connection. Yesterday I talked to a friend, and she said she missed me. I told her that the phone works. Her response to that was "I follow you on Facebook." Yeah, that's cool. It's nothing like hearing a person you care about voice or sitting in their presence. I've always longed for human connection. I love to enjoy others' company as well as spending time with myself. I do not want to be a hermit and internalize everything. I cannot understand how some people just do the 'Internet thing.' I love hearing from my friends. I love the conversation. I love going to a bar and watching a football game. (Thanks Wayne for yesterday).

We often get caught up in the hustle and bustle of life, and sometimes we forget how to just live. We can work and work and get 'material things,' but we will miss out on living. I love just 'being still.' Sometimes we have to rest the mind, body and soul. We have to hibernate to rejuvenate. That's why we need vacations from work. It doesn't have to be an elaborate vacation. It can be a drive to friend's house that lives 4 hours away. It can be just going to a hotel downtown and becoming a tourist for a few days without any worries of home or work. Just being free.

Technology again is a blessing and curse. I'm happy that I've gotten in contact with some people from my past (i.e. Melanie Williams, Lysa Cage and Letitia Carter) with the use of the Internet. I do not like that we are dependent on this technology for everything. This just reminds me that I have to call one of those before mentioned persons, for we've been texting for the last two weeks. I haven't talked to her on the phone. I have heard her voice in a minute. I want the human connection. I will do my part. Will you?

I Walk the Walk to be Great!

This morning I woke up and realized that I want my dreams to come true because I want to be great. Money does not motivate me to fulfill my dreams. Yes, I like nice things. However, I don't envy others because of their material things. I want to fulfill my dreams because I was born to be great. I was born to accept my life as God designed. I'm becoming more aware of my gifts and talents. I'm shining more brightly every day. I regressed at times, but I need to learn from those regressions and keep moving on. We all have things about ourselves that we want to change. But most accept as is, but I cannot do that any longer. That's tearing me away from the person I was born to be.

I know my worth. It's not what Starbucks giving me, but I'm here for the meantime. That's all. There's so much more to my life. I have a million and one ideas that can create a million and one dollars. It's time to put these ideas to action. I've met so many people that can help me. I have to help myself so they can see the potential become a reality. It's only then that everyone will be on my coattails. Haters, I know you're out there. It's ok. I'm motivated by you. I want to prove you wrong, for I know my way is right. It's my God-given right. I'm not a malicious person. I want you to get yours, too. If you have your own, you're not looking at what I have.

We are in a capitalistic society that reveres money. I revere greatness in the form of the ability to change as in Jay-Z, transcending greatness through intelligence and charisma such as Barack Obama, or loving oneself without limits such as India.Arie. Jay-Z left the game of hustling (drug-dealing) behind to become one of the greatest MCs and businessmen in hip-hop. Barack Obama brought people together in a time when uncertainty and fear reigned in our country. India.Arie has remained true herself despite the popular perception of beauty. She transcended beauty to include 'strength, courage and wisdom.' These are celebrities that I admired for their inner strength not their money, clothes, houses or cars.

Now I wake up and realize that I can do it, too. I can transform my life to anything I want it to be with persistence and strength. I can do this. This is my time. I walk the walk to be great.

To give or not to give...

"Having been given, I must give." - Paul Robeson

Yesterday I went to my mom's house and work in the yard. I hadn't cut grass in years because I live in apartments without those responsibilities. However, I went by my mom's house and I made a promise with my brother to cut the grass on Sundays. I used to do the yard by myself every week because that's what my grandfather used to do it every Saturday. He had less than I did. I had a lawnmower with a bad so I didn't have to rake up and pick the grass. I had a weed eater. He had a a machete to line the edges.

I always respected and loved my grandfather. As I get older my admiration grows. I'm not idolizing him. He had his faults, but he was a man. He raised seven children in a house he bought. It was not a mansion, but it was his. My grandfather was not big as far as height, but he was a big to me. He was a man of consistency and routine. Every Saturday (unless it was raining) he woke up and did the lawn and worked in his garden. Then he would take a shower and get his hair cut. I didn't have much hair, for he was balding. He went every Saturday to get his hair cut and lined. Then on Sunday he would wake up, get ready and walk to church for 8:00am. If it was football season, he went to every home game for the New Orleans Saints. Then he went to work at 6:00am and get back around 4:00pm.

I remembered my grandfather, for he was my father figure. He was my Paw Paw. I wanted to be like him. I'm not without faults, but I aimed to work as he did. I aim to live as he did, but giving with being myself. Giving shouldn't be something I do to get attention. Giving should be a part of who I am. My grandfather gave me consistency and love. For that I am giving the world my best. My best hasn't been tapped into yet. I give you J. R. Williams Consulting, LLC. This was named after the man who gave me so many examples of what a man should be, James Royal Williams, Sr, my Paw Paw.

Putting It Out There

"It's easy to be independent when you've got money. But to be independent when you haven't got a thing, that's the Lord's test." - Mahalia Jackson

Many of us have fallen victim to materialism. Often it's the have's versus the have not's. I've noticed how some look at the have not's with disdain and contempt. I am a have not. I have a lot though. I have an eduation (B.A.), family and friends, God-given talents and gifts and experience. I have a lot, but monetarily I am struggling. I don't have what I know I can. I've stopped hustling like I used to, but that doesn't mean I don't have a fulfilling life. I have an imagination. I have dreams. I have faith in a HIGHER POWER that these dreams will become my reality. But I have looked at family members and friends (the have's) and wished it was me. I cannot lie. I won't lie.

So I will not be a slave to capitalism. I have to understand my needs and my wants. I have to differientiate them, for I have enough for my needs. I have to save for my wants. They cannot go before my needs. My needs are essential to my existence. I will falter at times, but it's about achieving the goal. It's not about the new kicks or new gadget. It's about living happily and fulfilling. I cannot tell you how many times that I've given up. I cannot anymore. My dreams depends on it. Hell, my life depends on it.

I'll tell you this. I want to be debt-free in five years. I have a lot of work to do, but I think I can do it. I'm going to get with an accountant and find out the best ways to achieve this. Yeah, that's the ticket. I have to put it out in the universe. I have to work its magic and act. It's my time for action. I'm putting it out there.